So bz with the upcoming nco camp for sjab and i think ppl sending me email and details are so slow and i also dunno wat to begin with. Seems like my logistics is being done by only me. Sometimes i wonder am i being happy to be busy working and keeping myself bz. Sometimes yet i want to forget myself but i dun want to completely forget myself too.

I bought ps2 already when ps3 is out. I guess i dun have $$ to buy ps3 and when the price drop i think i would be in NS liao. After NS then i guess i would buy it. Hoping i can win 4D so tt i can buy a laptop. Really hoping to have a personal computer tt can follow me whenever i go. I just need somethings to pei wo go whereever i go. Hope somedays i would find tt object tt represent me.

I saw li ting and christina at design canteen. What feeling i have? I dunno do i regret to stop being friends with them. But if time could time can turn back, i guess i will still do the same thing. It is something tt i want to forget. It is wonderful to be friends with them yet still i want to forget them. I think in this world it is better to assume things then to ask the truth. I mean assume things for the better, of cos. Yet, u will get upset when u assume things for too long. I dun want to think so much liao, i just want to be happy. Be myself, living in the light and darkness. In both i must be happy cos being happy and sad is wonderful feeling. The feeling tt i dun enjoy most is stress.


Sometimes i hate the feeling of love. Do i understand it? I dun want to understand it. Cos everytime i will end up forgetting tt feeling.

So many ppl ask me to quit sjab. Shld i quit or not. Or am i using it to make myself more bz, or i dun dare to quit it. My heart ask me to stay on yet my mind ask me to leave it. Shld i follow my heart or mind. Hope to find the answer one day. I still yet to find myself. Can i find myself alone, i wonder? The feeling tt i seeking for, finding myself in this wide world. I still not myself yet, i want to find my soul.