Met up with my group today and farhan group to discuss the poc item. It is like damm bored. After tt went to have lunch. I like having two lunch tt day but nvm i am hungry. Then go HQ for a meeting. The meeting is like damm sian also. Give those comment like they dun listen so y i bother talking. I am like trying to change but do people give me a chance. U all told me to change and i think i shld change but i am very tired of change but it matter. NO!!!!!! I CAN TELL U. How my temper lately??? i have been trying to change. I want to be happy but nothing happen. Things have change back to a square one. I feel tt sjab is so untactic. Can they be tactic!!!!! I can be serious at times but do they listen. I hate this damm feeling. I keep quiet and feel unhappy, talk also unhappy, can anyone tell me wat to do now!!!!!!!! Then after tt they go eat dinner but i feel like so full so i nv eat and felt early as i feel damm bored but nvm noone know how i feel anyway. Was thinking about a sentence today. Somethings feel so close yet so far...... Really feel tt way today when i c u......... sigh.......... it dun matter toooo. i know now like nothing matter to me anymore....... When i reach home feel so bored again. i like everytime feel bored but i am trying not to feel bored again by freezing my heart. I feel damm tired and noone to share my pain with me. Everyone is like so bz now but does they even remember me. HAHAHA. Y do i bother going otc??? I dunno even feel happy there. I like nv feel happiness for so long liao and forgotten the taste of it. Just remember the taste of a loner and sadness. U say tt i have change to the worse. Ya i know and i hate myself but u think tt my oldself can hold on any longer. U seems tt i have no problem but i dunno y tt i feel tt i have so many prob and i can't cope with it ok. Maybe tt i feel tt i am alone solving all those prob.
~ { 11:11 PM } remembering the days when u were by my side
