Today went out with shi xiang and leo to sim lim. Leo wanted to DIY a com himself so i got help from shi xiang. Only go c c nv buy yet. Then go city hall area walk walk cos i dun feel like going home. Bought two story bks haha so i won't get bored so easily. Looking to the movie on fri. Yet hate to ask whether they going to watch or not. Dunno r they cannot made up their mind or wat lor. Just reply me lar then i can book the ticket more easily. If they fly a aeroplane on me, make sure they pay sia. Pay me the $$ i mean. Hope tp timetable faster come out, then i can book my driving lesson. Btw thanks for shi xiang and leo for talking to me when i am bored yesterday. Haha :)

YEAH i pass my basic theory on my first try. So happy lor. Yet so sad cos $300 is spend on the practical and advance theory too. So next 2 month later is my advance theory. Hope TP timetable come out soon lor. Then i can book my practical driving lesson quick. I hope to finish and pass everything by next year MAY. Hope i can do it ba.....

I just left one week + of my holidays. Hope it end and dun end soon. Haha. Life is just boring and dun really look forward to sch reopen yet i am bored so also hope sch reopen soon. Irony feeling....

Does it really mean tt if u move back one step, the world would be a much better place. Does it mean u always have to move back one step then to make others happy instead of u when u have the right to move forward. Singapore is really becoming much of a unhappy place to live in cos not much ppl r moving back and too much ppl r moving forward. I mean "inconsideration".

Went for sjab meeting today. As usual it is boring and i have not much say in it. Just want to slack my way through to find it to kill time ba. Since there r so much time before the day i die haha. Just spend it the way i want lor. Just find tt i can change my mood pretty quick and easy and i know the reason for it. I been living my life more of unhappiness and yet want to enjoy the happiness i got in my life for a bit longer when it occur but during tt enjoyment i forget everything before the pain come back and I will just rmb everything all over again.

Next event happening this week shld be my basic driving test and my exercise ba. Two more week till sch reopen yet i dun really care wheather it sch holiday and sch start. It look all the same to me. I just want to grow up and get to understand more things. The world is such a dull place, how can ppl live in it. Or it just singapore? I heard Singapore is one of the most unhappy place to live in. Cos we move forward too much, yet not much fun staff or relaxing place in Singapore and everything here is $$. Is this the price for moving too fast in our lifestyle? I just dun understand anymore. I want to live in forest where it is so quiet and peaceful. Just a dream...... Live is such a pain yet it can but fun just in my dream.....

I just love sleeping as it waste all the time in the day away. When life is so bored, it is so great just to spend time by sleeping it off. Finally tml i am going out. Sick of being at home playing dota at day around. Reading manga and watching tv. Like a repeat cycle of life everyday. Tt is so no life. I shld go do some sports yet can't wake up early. Everyday wake up at 2pm+ or later and after tt cos boring and go back to sleep at 5 pm. Yet i can stay awake in the night as long as i want. I think i need to really sleep eariler.

Wat derrick said in the tagboard is just so wrong. Humans r not a being tt the way u want to treat the person is how u want to get treated. It is not as simple as ABC. How nice treating a person is also not true as a person might be acting to be nice to gain something else, if nothing benefit someone, a person might not even want to be friends with him/her. Treating others is how u want to get treated is not true in this unfair world. I also realise y this world is so unfair. If it is fair, nothing will advance and move forward in life. If life is fair, life will also be boring, tt y this world is make not to be fair in the first place. Btw it is not a crisis, it is a time for me to realise how stupid i am in the past to believe ppl who aren't worth me believing again and again.

*Dun think i will want to go online for the moment, no point going online when it is the same as appearing offline. *

I believe once a person die, it will become just nothing, no heaven nor hell. The reason ppl believe in good and bad, heaven and hell is because they want to find a reason for ppl to do gd stuff and a lack of reason for ppl to do bad things. For eg if a bad person just do bad things and go to hell, ppl believe tt will make them feel sort of happier rather then believing someone will just disappear to thin air when he/she die. Dun hope to die becos u only have one chance to stay alive and die once. Just finish ur life and bye bye u go. Anyway u going to die one day. Living long is also not a gd things and this make it no purpose in living is wat i feeling now.

For me to realise tt this world is not as simple as i thought so and friendship is such a weak bonding. Ppl might act to be ur friend and also might be friend just to take advantage of u. Effort u put into a friendship is also often wasted. And ppl just tell me tt "This is life" Really not happy just to hear and accept tt it is part of life. I just feel tt human r just too weak for anything. Rather call urself close friend can change the word to family might be a better choice. Friends do make u believe them over and over again just to cheat u and yet ppl say y do they have reason to do tt becos one they do not realise wat r they doing, two they r cheating and acting, third they just can't be bother yet dun want to tell u up front tt they dun like u and rather we friend and not enemies with u cos having a friend is better than a enemies. I really want to go study human better, just to say if such things as satan exist, it must be a human for being the most evilest things on earth tt polluted and destroy their own kind and even the planet they are living in.

Hais, i think i shld be name as a sadist of the world, who can show me goodness in this world and i can feel tt it is good. I think tt y i feel so bored cos nothing much in this world exist for me to feel happy. Love, friendship, family and money r becoming things tt i dun believe in. I dun want to fall in love again. I dun trust my friend as easily as before. I dun communicate well with my family nor they know me well, and money is nv enough for anyone.

It is a fact for me being a more serious sadist as i think more at night. I think in fact at night it is a different me.

keep forgoting to blog sia. Now reading a manga call death note. Quite nice but read long will get tired one. Also went to hospital to check my colour blindness and whether i am fit to drive or not. It is so troublesome. I hate my colourblindness. It is really like a handicapped to me.

Staying at home is really a real boreness to me and i dun have mood to work liao. And my $$ is using too fast. Hais..... WEnt ice skating on last wed and my legs hurts about 3 days. Haha it was a wonderful day, i just want to go out. This holiday is really boring sia. For once i hope sch faster reopen.

I think i begin to not trust my friends more and more. Dun think they also trust me too. Just got this feeling. Is it the world such a place and if it is y do ppl live in here. Or r they even ppl, sometimes i just dun want to be a human at all. I think friend is a strong word. Maybe the meaning of friend in the dictionary does not fit me and them ba. No wonder got this saying call trust no one but urself. True to some extend ba.