Sat
Went for AFA exam tt day. Hais, i admit i nv work hard for it as i was really too restless and lazy and exam r coming so like sort of nv study so i am not so happy even i pass afa. I feel is crap lor, y others can go for the course before going to exam but not us( otc member). Nvm

Sunday
Went for agi today. Haha next week i dun need to come cos of exam, actually i am quite relived. Dun feel like coming, so tired. Then those not coming next week right, sit there do those simple simple things like give out water and buns. Haha so bo liao until i almost fall asleep. Lucky one friend beside me woke me up. Haha trying to keep myself awake but i can't. Hais.... so there waste my time only. End around 5+pm. haha i like those guys slow march. IS very very standard and nice and i mean it. Haha. POC is coming. So happy. Finally all this is going to end after so long. Really tiring and i need to go always cut hair becos of sjab and i really running out of cash ok. BROKE!!!!!

Monday
Today has OC remedial, haha thought got detention but he cancel it. Then went to lib to study, hope i can rmb those chem reaction. So many of them. I really hope holiday can come soon. Haha my friend and i plan to go KL during our holiday. YEAH!!! i want to go holiday went my friends. First time, was wondering if anyone can go but finally someone organise it. Haha so happy. Go genting. Exam coming and i am so stress. Cos my result is not gd= tt i have to do well in this exam. This all sux...... hope i can do well...... Gd luck to those who r having examing soon.

Yesterday was my birthday, as usual i didn't enjoy it. One of the days i most hate is birthday, looking forward it yet knowing tt i will not enjoy it tt day. Really hope i can enjoy my birthday next time or wat. Sigh..... Feeling quite restless lately also, sjab= more project and matter to settle, afa exam this sat, agi coming, feel so sick of all this ok. I dunno y but i starting to feel so tired of it. Y can't i directly get permission not to come for agi, u know i have exam at 5 sept and i my final paper and i got agi on 4 of sept, can't u all let me go for once, every meeting or wat i try to attend without fail, i just need one leave this time is it asking for too much. I hate them ok. Stupid.......

Exam are coming and i really hope i am preparing for it, feel so sick and tired of life. I want to enjoy myself. How am i going to do this? I want to cheer up but i can't, too many things to think of and i feel so lazy. Hais. I am also sick of complaining but tt my life.

Thanks to those who rmb my birthday and also thanks for yy,liting and jeanie for the wallet, i like it very much. As for the safety charms, dun dare to use it deby.

Has been hearing alot of things lately, it is like a period where people are stress and feeling down.....cos i think is exam is coming and a lot of test lately. Wat the meaning of life, i wonder. I rather live to make people happy rather than make people sad right, this is my meaning in life. Sian sia, this week need to hand up one project and tml also have one lab test and going to sch outing later, go one NS camp in a island, guess u guys know where is it cos i dunno how to spell. Ha ha my spelling sux. Life has been ok for me this week, dunno lar, i feel like a person who has lost my soul. I think wat the apel class was right, i dun have a aim in life, i guess i need to find one now. I hate to think, i am so lazy!!!!!!

Something bottle in my chest and i really want to get it out: I HATE U!!!! for making life difficult for me, hate u for being so arrogant, hate u for being so selfish, hate u for being so hard on me, hard u for showing attitude, hate u for casting a shadows in me, i hate u for making my blood boil, in simple words, i hate u from head to toes. Y must i c u again and y can't i treat u nice and hope u can treat me nice in return, i did not do anything ok. I just hate u and thinking of u just make my blood boil. I HATE U, REALLY HOPE I DUN C U BUT I KNOW I WILL!!!!!

haha feeling better.LOL I like my skin so much, suit me i guess

Feeling very disapointed with myself lately. Got study or nv study my result is still like tt so wat the point of study when i always get so nervous in exam and forget everything also when i study wat can i practise on where there is no tys. THIS SUXS OK!!! All those quiz & test have already let me lose confidence in myself. How am i going to get back my confidence? Tell me can someone....... Fri so many test but i was trying to forget everything by forgetting everything, haha went to a sub com talk after sch then in the LT after everyone left, went to play paper aeroplane with my class. Childish right. Haha. But at night the pain came. The memories of those test. I am so sick of all this. I am so afraid. ARRRRRR y am i so weak. I want to be stronger. Hais. I guess i have to study more and less maple......... But will it help, i dunno...... Later still need to go HQ for sjab. So long nv go sjab liao, dunno if i am rusty. I dunno. Sick of it.....

Not feeling very well lately, headache and cough is enough is kill me. Feeling so restless and feeling not like me at all. I dunno myself anymore, feeling so lazy and i dun want to think about anything. Celebrate yy birthday, haha u guys have a fun time right. Haha i want to master tt game in the arcade. I so lousy sia. Then on sunday went to kbox, told u guys i can't sing sia. And having a really bad cough. I have fun through. Being living in the shadows, i want to get out of it soon. Wat am i??? Y does i feel this way with u guys. i dun want to say much. I want to find the answer myself. I dunno anything about myself, i guess is time to find the another part of me. My trueself. Hope i find myself back again....... How shld i going to do tt, first i want to leave the shadow tt u cast on me. Tml got sch liao and have so many test this week, i am so so not prepared. I need a break to rest and have a gd break without any illness. Can i do tt. Really feeling so so so tired. I now realise y i dun like to do business liao, i dun like to face people. Cos i dunno how to face them. I want to be true about myself tt even saying all the bad things about me. However is tt wrong, i dunno....... Sometimes i feel so sick of sjab, dun mind people i saying this ok, this is my personal opinion. Really feel like quiting, there is no more motivation for me left. No point sia. Can't think of any reason, i thought i was happy in it however i am not, all the while i am just feeling painful and not happiness. Have the pain numb me to feel happiness. I dunno..... I hate to give up. I dunno. I just dunno how to face u all now. Feeling so weak and helpless lately. I hope to find my str back again. I know i will, but when is the time, i wonder?????

So long nv blog, not tt i dun want is tt i am either bz or sick. Have been sick lately so mood to blog. Before i forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YI YUN!!!!! 17 years old liao. Haha u getting old sia.
Have not been myself lately, feeling a sense of lost, searching for my missing part. I lost my MEB textbk on web, arrrr i want to get it back, but where is it, i dun even rmb whether i got write my name or not. All this sucks man. Next week so many test and i feel tt time like pass so quickly. Damm it, i feel so damm lost..... hope i get back to myself again. Sometimes i dun even know wat am i talking about, feeling tt i am keep not using my brain to talk. I admit i dun think before i talk but now is like i dun think of anything, i hope is my illness tt make me feel so headache and dun feel like thinking. I want to recover soon. I guess i will be spending lots of $$ lately. Want to go watch movie and like so many movie i need to go watch. Tml ccn day liao. Hope my class make some $$. Tt all. Hope tml is a better day.