Wat a boring day. Woke up early, went to the agency to find a job. I send my particular, hope i can get the job they say. Work for one month and is mon to fri. I like it. Hope not like tt stupid company i work before. Haha. After tt i went home, i thought the badminton session was at 2pm cos kelvin sms tt timeslot wat. Then they change the timeslot to 1pm so i had to rush down. Anyway it seems so fast the time. Play like a while end game liao. Haha. I really need to exercise more. Then after tt went to singpost. Damm it lor, dun have the suitable box for me. Hope u like the present. Haha!!!! End up the box really really big. Seriously it look weird. Haha. Then went home sleep. Then more slacking lor. Seriously is bored, w/o dotaing. Haha..... And i thought this week no bleach, it is the next week which dun have, i so blur sia. I read almost finish the manga. Not bad sia. Addicated but come out so slow...... No wonder need filler.

So communication skills is impt. Hais....... Seriously i rather talk on the phone than on msn lor if i am given a choice. I want to control my temper and anger lei. Tried running, failed. Hmmm dunno wat can i do lei. And i think i use a method too much which is complainning. Wat shld i do, before i go nuts. Sleeping also dun really seems to solve the prob too. Any ideas can pls tell me. Haha thanks a lot....

So i went out almost the whole day. Went sim lim buy harddisc and earphone. Finally!!!!!!! Then go bugis watch movie....... The host....... So so lar, i find the movie boring but some part is funny. Beside i dun think there are much gd movie out lately. Hope spiderman3 faster come out. I having a headache. Whether to go work or not. My mom found a agency then ask me consider. C how lor..... I really want to rest a bit longer. Y the holiday can't be longer. Haha...... Mission Impossible.

I guess some things i must do it, whether ppl around me seeing me do tt r upset of it or not and say i stubbon cos somethings r meant to do it by u to feel a relieved and to others might c it as a task tt need not be done by u.

So how am I. Normally y do ppl say they r fine when they r not. Weird. So i lost my job, my friend, my health, my wallet. Wat more can i lost man. I so sick of losing so much things in just 2 days. Something more weird, i guess tt our friendship will end up like tt one day. Tt y i wanted to change the future yet u just dun understand my words in any sense. I dropped too much clue but u just can't get it. I guess u r not even my friend at the first place. I ignore other ppl advise cos of u, ppl say tt u r such a person yet i ignore them. I even fight with them over this issue. I guess it is not worth it. U r not my friend even to begin with.

MY job. So wat u pay me $8 a hr. So wat u r my mom friend. U keep forcing me to do stuff tt i dun want esp i told u i hate business. Y so u have to keep forcing me until midnight. Force and force until u gave up on me. Give me two choice. To leave or stay behide to ask my goal in life. I sort of feeling u r cheating off $$ from those ppl from other country. 40 to 60 years old. Sorry i just stubbon enough to not believe ur bullshit. Fine u fired me. I dun want to work there anyway. So u can't force me right so u fired me. Cool.

So wat, noone is free. I MEAN NO ONE IS FREE AND I MEAN IT. I wasted so much sms and phonecall, asking ppl to go out with me when i am most down. All say bz, work, bah bah bah......... Dun want go out say lar. Yeah i go out alone. I lost my wallet...... SO wat. Happy right. I am so pissed off.

So how my health. Going for a mental breakdown. Doctor say my blood pressure a bit high however he measure for a second time, he say is ok. I have breathing problem and unable to control my stressness. Oh well. He might as well declare tt i am dead.

So how my life. Yeah i feel so happy and nv been so happy before in my life. I am nv tired. So i will stand alone again. Since i have this feeling so often. Dun come and crap with me.

Today was my first day of job. It was fine. Binding stuff and still more other stuff to do. I think i became an office boy liao lor. Nvm, work one month then i can enjoy my life. Haha. Hope the month really come to an end.

I getting sick. Really sick i guess. I want to c a doctor.......

Still feel a bit lost and not tired at all no wonder wat condition i am. Hais.... I dun want to feel tired, this feeling is great but at wat price........ Tml I will be working but c so many of my friends looking for jobs, i feel kind of sad also. Hope they can find the jobs they want soon..... So today went for sjab agi. Still got the same old feeling. I hate to go for SJAB event. It is bo liao, but still must go dunno for wat reason. Pls give me a reason to stay on. Btw bedok green won a award. I think those from bgss are so happy and agree with it. WON THE TOP SECOND MOST UNCOOL UNIFORM!! I STRAITS TIME. I want to find the articles about it. Hope is true.

Time heal and change stuff but somethings nv change no matter how long time passes. Therefore time can hurt u or heal u........ No matter wat, treasure time well.......

History repeat and repeat itself. So wat, damm it with life. I tried to change, i seriously did yet history keep repeating itself. I not going to try anymore, NO NO NOMORE. No more encourging words from myself to keep myself walking. No more of pleasing ppl. No more being nice to ppl so everyone is happy. I so long nv taste the feel of happiness. Must ppl happiness be built up on other ppl sorrow. I hate to rmb stuff, i hate to say stuff to ppl yet if i dun say, nothing will change, i am impatient, so y do after i say things. No one cont to accept me or change instead get more piss off. Weird life

Went to kbox to sing, nv go really well cos of me. Is my fault? Sorry? I keep thinking for ppl do ppl think for me?

Dun need ask i also know the answer!!!

DAMM WITH THIS WORLD
DAMM WITH ALL THE PPL
DAMM LIFE
IT IS JUST SO DAMM!!!

NEXT AIM IN LIFE: BE RESTLESS!!! BE STRONG!!!

DUN FALL DOWN COS OF STUPID PPL!!!! LASTLY TO CREATE THE 2nd MIRACLE