TUESDAY Must make tuesday the word big later people say my blog not clear........ Sigh whole day so sian, i stay at home nv go out. Plan to go beach but noone is free but i kind of expected it. Sigh.... Feel like someone is giving me attitude. Hack care lar. Today quarral with my mom again. Told her not to call my manager but she still called. Then found out need to do one more day to get the pay. So sian ok. I like hate to work there liao and time table is so packed. Want me go and work. Guess i need to tell me friend tt i am not accepting the job he ask me to accept. Feel so bad like he ask his friend for the space liao. Fuck lar ok. Feel so messy ok. After tt my mom still want me help her do things, can't she give me a moment of peace. Play the whole day game, tired i sleep. WAT TO DO!!! EVERYONE R 'VERY" bz. Maybe they r avoiding me. DO i care. NO I DUN CARE. Maybe i will care a bit but i will stop caring about these stuff. Feel more inhuman each day!!! 'but i dun think is my fault' Tomorrow still need to go out and work. HAHA with my friends this time. Is like 3am+ now but i dun really like sleeping. Maybe i will slack for a while more. Sorry guys i think only when i free than i can change the skin and music and all tt. Not free now and not in the mood of doing so. Feel alone really can make me numb, maybe soon or one day i feel really feel tt i can survive alone!!!! I must do it is not the prob if i can or not. Friends i thought tt r really my friend, but am i really a friend in their heart.
~ { 3:10 AM } remembering the days when u were by my side
