Wednesday: Decided to wake up and blog after lying down cos i feel so down. I think y i feel so down. I like having lots of stress on the job later i need to do and i actually did not plan to be a sales promoter. I dun think i will be doing a gd job but before this got people pour cold water on me and do people even listen to my problem. I like feel tt i hate everybody now........ Y must tt Li zhou and Wai Sum had to talk when i told them to shut up and listen to wat bevin has to told me. They spoil my day and do people even bother heard me talk. I like feel so bottled up with anger. DO PEOPLE EVEN CARE????????? How I even get out of this damm feeling. WS do u even try to call me to talk with me but everytime u call me Y force me talk with u but when i call u, U R ALWAYS NOT FREE. WaT THE MEANING OF THIS............. DO people even heard me talk............ OR MUST I BE AM MUTE............. IF LET ME CHOOSE I RATHER BE A MUTE.............................. When i feel down do people even care!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am like feeling ok today. Went to training with a light heart but at night has such a heavy heart......... I just learn to play a game and only need a min with bevin BUT THEY KEEP TALKING AND COS ME TO LISTEN NOTHING............ DO THEY EVEN BOTHER TO SAY SORRY......... NO THEY DON'T.... PEOPLE BAD MOOD. I BAD MOOD. BUT DO THEY CARE............ I AM SICK OF LIFE OK................... I NEED TO RELEASE MY ANGER!!!!! I REALLY WONDER IF PEOPLE EVER CONCERN ABOUT MY FEELING......... I JUST FEEL TT I AM SO WEAK BUT HOW I STAY STRONG ALONE..........................WATEVER MAYBE I SHLD JUST DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUN THINK I WILL HAVE A GD SLEEP TONIGHT............................
~ { 2:12 AM } remembering the days when u were by my side
