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Saturday, February 26, 2005



So tired man. But i have been quiet the whole day. I dunno y i dun feel like talking. Maybe is becos i got so much to talk but noone want to even listen which cos me lazy to open my mouth. Yeah y bother?? Today nv go watch any movie becos of the timing. I feel so restless and really restless. I know i having a break but i can't let out of my bunden. The bunden is too heavy and i am carrying for too long liao. I need a person to help me up but i dun think i can find someone to do tt. Nvm i used to it liao. Things r always this way. I already given up. I feel so so tired. Y must my life is played this way. Monday result is out so wat ok. I know the end result. The courses i like can nv be entered by me ok. So wat the whole pt. U guys nv even tried to understand me. Nvm i also dun want to say anymore. It dun matter to me liao. Feel like a undead. Walking like a zombie. Cos i really feel tired. So wat is training. Training is me is not training. Y people enjoy bootlicking. Y do the teachers always like tt one. Everytime i put in the best but u all dun even tried to understand. I really agreed tt u all r truely blind. Know u all enjoy those bootlicking stuff but too bad i am not like them. I dun ask for favour, if u all r not happy with the stuff i do then so be it. I dunno y must i suffer like tt when i am doing a contribution. Life is so unfair. Tell me to put in my best but happen in the end. Noone even care. Y be nice to people when life is so unfair u tell me. I dunno y this word keep appearing in my mind. Stop saying is my fault ok. Dun u think u played a huge part. I am enough and really enough. Y can't anyone understand me and go to the beach. U all know i am hoping to go there for a very long time already but u all nv even tried and even i tried. I also feel tt this things happen to me r all expected liao. I am very scared. I feel i am have already expect all this will happen. But i dunno y. This feeling sux.

~ { 12:03 AM }
remembering the days when u were by my side