Today so tired, reach home nearly 10pm. First half of the day, otc. Second half still otc. Haha the first lecture seems so boring but i like to listen to tt lecture. Esp the clip he show us. I learn a lot from tt clip. So wat the prob, we still need to live the day to the best. Life is short. And i dun want to face any prob. So wat if u solve it or if u dun solve it, life much carry on. I have already lost hope in........... but i just dun realise it only. The prob i keep pushing to u all saying tt is ur fault. Now i admit is also my fault ok. A quarral can't be started with one party right. I really lost hope already, rather put my hope in myself. Since u all dun care about me, y shld i let myself dun care about myself. Then second half of the otc, went to yio chun kang stadium. It was raining ok and we still need to go under the rain. I dun want to type so long but is to do all the shit noone will do one. I feel so tired ok. R otc member use to do this things but then again if we dun do, WILL ANYONE DO????? I hate stress and pressure ok. It just make me can't do anything right ok. I hate tired and standing the whole time. It makes me can't think of ideas ok. Sigh....... tomorrow still need to work. I look forward to a happy day tomorrow. I know unhappy memories can't be forgotten. SO i won't try to forget. IS part of my memories and let me remember how people treat me.........

a bond of ship must be build strong
if not everything will go wrong
workers working r calling out in pain
workers slacking gains

workers working starts to complains
worker slacking ignores
tt when the bond really break
everyone fades

the mess then must be clear
if not everyone will be in fear
but slackers run
and others r in lost

hmmmm yeah blogging again. Y no one come tagboard one
so quiet. like a in a grave like tt. More lively pls. Going to work again tomorrow. I choose to work one lor. But nvm i need more $$ anyway. Today went to play cs with jh and also get microsoft office from klz. Sigh......... i very sian lei. Thinking of going otc make me sick. I dun feel like even going ok. If i knew this i won't have choose to go. IS damm sian ok. Life sux..........................

Feeling like blogging again today. Dun talk about weekdays cos the only thing i do is work. Hmmm sat shld be a fun day. I went sentosa with some friends. ARRRRRRR got sunburn and injure my leg. The volleyball drop into the sea in the rocky area and i was so rush. I went out but injure my leg. Sian. Now whole body so pain (actually is shoulder). So long also nv swim liao so got swim a bit. Swim a bit like want to die liao. At one moment i thought i die liao. I was so tired lor. Nv sleep much tt night. Then went home after tt and sleep. Woke up thought is sunday 8.30pm. I hate the feeling thinking about OTC. Wat so great being a officer. I dun want to be a officer alone, going back sch and help. Feeling so uncertain. Too bad i dun like to pair with zhi da as a officer. Tt y i say alone. Farhan if u c this. Y nv come?????Must come hor if not i really alone liao.
Sunday
Went OTC today. I forgot to polish boots nv lucky nv get caught. Then my cap badge nv change. Wao liao think i got so much time to buy and change it is it. I got the cap badge tt day ok. Then still want us to march one round. My leg is alright lar but the timing is so fast. I dunno is it my leg or the sound travel too far. So slower a bit. Trying to catch up but can't do it. Siao Siao timer. Then got phototaking. My group then go to eat and discuss about the project. Hmmm wat i need to do. Safety and security. Hmmm wat to type and present. How i know. Crap lar. First aid com also not dangerous. Set up first aid post and wat. Seems easy but dunno wat to type. Any suggestion where can get ideas from??? The exam is like also so near...... Hate exams. I want to continue working ok in April. I dun want get tie down by SJAB!!!!!!!!!! I need $$ badly. Then actually want go zone 8 competition and c. Then heard the NC & AC leaving. Feel damm disappointed ok. Want go there c them and also c how the competition. I actually is trying to make a effort here and they r telling me like forget it, we r leaving. Then went home and sleep lor. I feel so sick and bored today. Nothing can cheer me up. Then read someone blog. Let me remember quite a long of bad memories. Nvm tomorrow need to work again. Hope is a fun day to work.

Haha finally can blog again. My life is so damm bz. Sleep 4 like 5h or less per day. Got work and got otc. Is it the wrong choice to go otc. I hope not. Feel so stress being a officer. Then got so many project and i am like so bz lately. I can't choose not to work becos of OTC right. I shld have some rm for personal life. But working is fun. I like this job. Dun need to work much and also even u work is easy to pass time. I want to work longer also cannot. I regret not working earlier here cos i dun have tt chance. I also just bought a camera. Haha bought the same model with li zhou. He bought liao then i bought. Fianlly have a new camera but the problem is i dun have much chance of using it even i want to use it. And today i thought about opening a chalet and also say sigh............ I got OTC now right. I am not so free on SUNDAY. ARRRRR i hate this man. I hope can find a slot for opening a chalet. Organising it is a big thing and i haven't got any $$ and also need someone to help me plan. Nvm put tt aside first. Hmmmm i also have other probs but i dun want to say. I just want to leave the prob there and dun touch it. I hate facing the prob cos everytime i want to solve it, the prob either became worse or the prob is still there. I dun want to care liao. Y shld i care when people dun care cos they say i dun deserve it. I am truely disappointed............. Sigh....... only can work till end of this month in the bank. SAD!!!!!!!! At least now i looking forward to weekdays and not weekends. Haha strange right. COS OTC SUxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx big time

So long nv blog liao. Has been bz. Just started a job on wed. Working in DBS bank until end of this month but subject to changes. Today we also celebrate jeanie and derek birthday. My auntie from thailand also came to S'pore. SO bz lately. Looking forward the outing this sat. I dun want to blog much. Very tired and no mood lately. Just can say i am very bz and need a support to hold me there.

Friday
Been working here and there this week but earning not much. Ha ha dun mind actually. I only need a bit more to buy a new com. Today work at sentosa. Damm far lor. Wokr there as waiter and seems the work quite ok since wei xian is with me. I want to faster buy a com. Haven't even apply for JAE. Wondering which choice i want to make. Turning circles at the 3 choice i made. CCA pt also cannot can - or not. SUX Sux. I wish i can score better only. Sjab also got went down on wed but seems to me no improvement. Some of the instructor get their OTC form liao. Haha gd for them but pls dun be proud after being a officer. If not i think everyone else will leave. Not aiming at anyone ok, dun misunderstand me. Hope i can get into my course and gd luck everyone else. Mdm fang email me back. Haha this is interesting. Ok tt all for now. Sorry nv blog for so long and my tagboard seems so dead. Heh everyone pls tag ok. Make this blog merrier!!!!!!!

Went to my pri sch and secondary sch but my pri sch dun let me enter, y dun let me enter, this is very idiotic. I went back secondary sch but to c tt my form teacher not there. Nvm. Haha not working on wed cos wei xian dun want to work then i also dun feel like working. Settle my JAE first. I email my chi teacher and it bring back lots of memories. I have another dreams becos of it. I want to open a BBQ in East Coast Park and invite everyone back again. I miss Graduation night and i hope i can make history repeat itself. I miss my class 4/3. Hope i can enter the courses i wish i can enter and hope is a correct course. I will make new friends and have another new lifestyle and i dunno can i take it. I completely new environment but i am looking forward to it liao. Today went back sch and i really felt the mixed feeling. I feel like a stranger to the sch. Maybe another few years the sch will be a stranger to me. I want to help out in SJAb then i can continue to know people inside. I dunno y i will miss my sch. Miss those old time when we r standing on the hot sun and also miss the times i want to sleep in class and also when teacher scold me. Miss the times in classroom and times tt i played with my friends. I can only turn back and think about it and how i wish time can turn back....... but am i too quiet last time. I need i need to mix around more. haha really grown up during this time....... Ok another blogging for today.