Sunday Decided to use some colours for blogging today. Hmm went for OTC camp briefing today. It was quite a boring 'lecture'. By the end of it, i must apply for leave, do grp flag, meet up night activities grp member and also settle the dinner thing on 5june. I can't multi task like tt right. Ask people to help me settle things but i think sometimes is better to do things alone. I like to get things right, fast and quick so i need not to bother with the same stuff again. In the end, flag not done, still need to plan for night activities thing. If i knew so troublesome, i won't volunteer at tt time. I guess i was dumb. Then when charles sir was like telling me something, i just can't get it right. I guess something i have communication problem or i am far too blur liao. Ha ha i need to bang my head to wall sometimes. I dun share the same frequency as other people. Then i went to zhi da house downstairs to pass him something then go back to eunos. Then guess wat, RAIN!!!!!! Rain so heavily, so i had to call my dad to bring me for lunch. I ate mac for lunch, didn't enjoy it cos i dun feel like eat mac but it was raining so wat choice do i have if i dun want to get wet. Went home after tt. Found out i am so so bz on the month of june. It will be a long month. Sometimes i really want to concentrate on my studies and ignore other stuff. But i want to live my life more meaningful. It will be bored if i follow my normal timetable everyday right. Hope something spice up my life. I like excitment but often i dun get it. Bevin birthday coming, camp is coming, bbq is coming. I guess my wallet is empty soon. Dun like this feeling, spending so much $$ over nothing. When can i get my mp3. I hate discman, so troublesome. I need something small. I still can't feel the bond between i and my class in poly. I guess the ice still haven't break yet. I have fears of meeting people. i guess my strongest fear in me is tt i fear others. I just can't overcome it, i guess this is me. i can't change it right. Sch is alright but i hope i can mingle with my class soon so i can feel more happy when i go to sch. Studies are difficult lor esp engineering math. It is A MATH. I guess i will learn to like tt subject. i want to study hard. Sometimes i can enjoy studying. I dun want to be like last time, getting grades like just pass. I want to aim further. Feel so stress in class sometimes, so many people take pure subject and done so well in O lvl. Wat about me.
Freedom is wat i need to find, and peace is wat i need to treasure and warm light which surround me is wat others can do....... Dun ask me wat is this. Suddenly i feel this way in my life...
~ { 2:54 AM } remembering the days when u were by my side
