Not feeling very well lately, headache and cough is enough is kill me. Feeling so restless and feeling not like me at all. I dunno myself anymore, feeling so lazy and i dun want to think about anything. Celebrate yy birthday, haha u guys have a fun time right. Haha i want to master tt game in the arcade. I so lousy sia. Then on sunday went to kbox, told u guys i can't sing sia. And having a really bad cough. I have fun through. Being living in the shadows, i want to get out of it soon. Wat am i??? Y does i feel this way with u guys. i dun want to say much. I want to find the answer myself. I dunno anything about myself, i guess is time to find the another part of me. My trueself. Hope i find myself back again....... How shld i going to do tt, first i want to leave the shadow tt u cast on me. Tml got sch liao and have so many test this week, i am so so not prepared. I need a break to rest and have a gd break without any illness. Can i do tt. Really feeling so so so tired. I now realise y i dun like to do business liao, i dun like to face people. Cos i dunno how to face them. I want to be true about myself tt even saying all the bad things about me. However is tt wrong, i dunno....... Sometimes i feel so sick of sjab, dun mind people i saying this ok, this is my personal opinion. Really feel like quiting, there is no more motivation for me left. No point sia. Can't think of any reason, i thought i was happy in it however i am not, all the while i am just feeling painful and not happiness. Have the pain numb me to feel happiness. I dunno..... I hate to give up. I dunno. I just dunno how to face u all now. Feeling so weak and helpless lately. I hope to find my str back again. I know i will, but when is the time, i wonder?????