i remove my post yesterday as i find myself being too nasty however i repost it as i have the same feeling again tonight. Bevin stop lying to me and make use of my trust can. Yes i believe ppl easily but do ppl have to make use of my trust like tt. I really hate this type of ppl. They have no brains and heart to care for others feeling. Want to find someone to talk to at this moment however i can't think of anyone to call to. My mood also have been getting worse and worse as my sister keep complaining to me her computer got prob, which make me so fed up. And i really in a lost. I woke up early today and eat my lunch, however i find no meaning of waking up. So in the afternoon i cont to take a nap. Realise i have been dreaming often now. I feeling more and more alone each passing day. I beginning to forgot who i am.... And my memory is really getting worse each day. Who bothers???? Maybe only i bother. I have not give up on myself, i just do not care now.