First lesson today was TD. Sian lor cos was TD, dun like him to teach. Then went for lunch at mensa. Today Cds was more fun lar. More difficult also lor. So many steps. Hais.... Then still got hw need to hand in by next week. 10% of ur total marks. So much. Tml go many lab. Thermo also dun have lab report or prelab and OC lab hw so difficult to do. I read up so much and only can do a bit here and there. Like tml go sch copy. Feel like making no effort when i like read through so much and dun understand. Chem is getting more and more difficult liao. Stress and this is the 4th week meaning tt more and more test and exam are coming. Tml still got lab test. Thursday also have PIPC test. Fri have CSAS test. So much test come together. Jia You Jia YOu!!! F4

Went to sch for Td today. Was shock to saw jiang li inside teaching. Haha cos they change teacher for TD. Better sia. TT "U Tin Tin" talk i can go sleep sia. Then after tt got OC test. Scared sia. Then today also quite tired. Went for CDS and like teach until quite difficult liao. Sorry guys i miss the GB match. I am just too tired.

Sian ar, today went for sch only for a few hours lecture, then sian lor got block nose for today. Hope i can clear it soon. Then after tt went to photocopy AM tuturial hw and go the room they book to do pipc. Sian lor. Hais then go home sleep. Haha. Tml still need to do the demo presentation. Hais hope my block nose faster clear.

Few days nv blog liao cos was sick also dunno wat to blog lar. Hais still not feeling very well today. Stupid weather. Like getting colder and colder. Today Am tutiorial took such a long time cos the question is very messy and need to resolve this and tt forces and need to c direction correct or not. Troublesome sia. Then went out of tp to eat. Then rush back to lib to finish up the prelab. Sian i do wrongly. Calculate so many times. Blur sia. Then went for OC lab. Quite fun lar, enjoy the lab session. At least better than PIPC. Then went home after tt. Hate to feel so sick, better yet feeling worse. Hais cos getting headache and easily tired yet not sleepy. Weird weird. Hope i get better soon and the weather pls dun be so cold.

Today went to my house today. He came until 10 pm. Was having a bad day or a gd day. Bad day cos i like having slight headache. And gd day cos i feel so slack today. Dunno tt gd or bad. Just now TD and PIPC hw. So difficult to do sia, feeling a bit dishearted liao. Maybe i shld start studying next week meaning start on monday. Maybe i will turn in early tonight. Live simple, think simple. Will tt do? Just want to be simple :)

Went with jin hui to east coast park to cycle today. He keep wanting me to pei him go jacob house but i refused lar, in the end dun need go. Haha i win. Have a quite fun day i supposed yet not fun also. Nvm. Nothing much happen today. Sian lor maple got dc and like i hunting item hunt until half way. Sian SIAN SIAN!!!!

Today classes start at 10. Met farhan at the bus stop today. I feel so sian lor lost one of my dolpfin when i come to sch. I hate those type of metal ring. Like so loose lor. I hate it. Then first lecture was ok but i cannot tahan the second lesson. So sleepy lor. He talk and talk but no one understand know wat he say. Lesson like eng lesson. Then by the time next lecture. I very very sleepy liao. So after tt OC lecture i went home to sleep, nv join the rest of them go lib. I think i was really tired. Two days reach home so late of cos tired lar. I sleep like for 4 and half hours like tt. So gd to sleep. Then woke up for dinner. Then just now do tt prelab for like 2h and solve only part of the question. After doing tt question i feel so piss off liao. My temper also like now become very bad. ( I hate to force to do things i dun like. If i dun do dun act not happy or wat lor.Those ppl really to me r idiots, dun keep promise gd enough liao, dun cont to piss me off)

I really am sick facing certain ppl. I am also tired facing ppl who dun understand others. No one knows anything. I feel so tired now. Really wish i can sleep forever. Yy how to try to be happy when life is not even happy for u. Everything dun go ur way at any view u view it. I need a break from all this. I want to be alone. I want silent. I WANT FREEDOM IN LIFE. Really in a bad mood now. Still need to face tutiorial tml. Feeling like going to the beach now. I still like the night. It seems so peaceful. Time passes slower. In my room, blogging anything i want. I hate the day. It seems so bz, it seems so tiring. Facing pressure, ppl, things u dun want, things u dun like. Yes i am running away from all this, ppl tell me this is life. If life is so miserable y is it ppl make life this way. Sometimes i just hope i am not in this world. Ppl all sad this is life. But do they understand life. I dun understand myself, how i understand others and humans always want someone to understand them. Maybe alone is the word.

Today first lesson was Applied math lesson. Was quite fast lar the lesson so end up we got 2h break. After tt was TD lab. End early also then we all went to jt house to watch the movie the nightmare before christmis. Was very nice lor. Then i went home to bath and change before going to TM to meet them for dinner and watch the movie harry potter. The movie was 2h 30min and was so nice. A lot of parts is cut out but i guess no choice also. Not enough time. Was hoping the next movie faster come out. So nice. Then after tt go home. Just now talk to yy. Ya wat u say is right lar, I will think about it lor. Thanks a lot for chatting with me.

Went to sch late today but since is a lecture so ya dun miss anything as the lecturer teach really slow. Then today Cds was so boring. Doing the things over and over again. I was like sian type and type the same thing. But nvm lar train me to rmb those input and output things. Rushed home to went for a sjab dinner. Was like damm sian. rush and rush just to go there. During the dinner also find hard to talk to them. Like wat the topic i can talk to them. Ya was so sian. Then got photography time then i was like wah more sian dun like to be in the photo and like also i dunno how to smile and there was so many camera just to take the photo. Thn after the dinner went with some of them to supper cos dun feel like going home so soon. By then also feel a well not so well. Maybe too tired and lack of sleep.
Heard them talk during the supper. Wat they say is right lar but i also dunno like. Maybe i scared go back and help out i will feel more stress cos also a bit feel left out liao. I normally like no topic to talk to them. Also dunno y just feel cannot fit in. Today my hp the dolpfin also one of them drop off. ARRRRR Y LIKE TT MAN!!!! then one of the officer like not happy with my dolpfin hanging out. Not happy but PLS DO NOT TOUCH THEM. Later need to fix them back. Almost lost one of them wah so scary. Then after tt sit a cab home. Tml going to go watch harry potter liao but i also not so excited about it. Dunno y just feel tt way. Need to sleep early tonight. Really really tired. ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZ
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I feeling depressed, lost and tired. Wat shld i do? Maybe i will find my direction one day. I feel being in this way but y do i always feel like tt.

Today start sch at 9. And end sch at 7. Very tired day. Have tutiorial first in the morning thn after tt apel. Was having a bit of cold today. Then after lunch so many lecture lor. By the time to go PIPC lecture i like going to fall asleep. Maybe did sleep a while in lecture. Then went to lib to book room then i cont sleeping until is time for cds lecture. The lecture was so boring lor. So lame. By the time to go back really is 7. Reach home sleep for awhile before waking up for dinner. Nothing much today. Just a tired day. Tml is the sjab dinner thing liao. So lame. Really dun feel like going.

Really tired today. Went out with shi xiang, seow ye and wei song. Went to watch doom. I dun like tt movie through but i promise them shi xiang to pei him watch ya so went to watch tt movie. After tt we walk around bugis. In arcade played some games but the most interesting one was the machine which allow u to catch softdoll one. Haha so fun. Wei song had to leave after tt then we cont to walk walk and shi xiang and seow ye want to go hp shop so we go lor. After tt seow ye have to go. Sian. Then shi xiang and me went to the lib to read some magazine on computer. Haha. After tt went for dinner and went home. Really tired liao after doing my hw and so discourage. Dunno how to do. Those question also like not even in the eg. Sian sian sian. Feel so tired mentally and phycially. Dunno can hold on how long. Hais....... Feel so tired, feel so meaningless. Sjab dinner is coming on tuesday and i have not prepare my uniform. Tml sch also end at 7. I HATE ALL THIS OK. I understand not only my life is like tt. I just feel my life is so meaningless liao. Hais watever life have to go on right. Have to sleep early liao.

today almost did nothing. Sleep and sleep lor. SO bored sia. then also worried about wat to do with those buttons. Dunno how to use or put them. After tt watch tv and tml also going out to watch movie. So bored sia. Going to watch doom. Now find mapling so sian. I rather jump the forest of patience in ellinia to pass time. Last time so difficult but now also quite difficult but also to train my patience. Nothing to do anyway. The harder it is the more fun it is. Hmmm wat to do to pass time now. SIAN!!!

Went to sch at 2pm today. Woke up late, plan to wake up at 10 or 11+ in the end woke up at 12+. After lesson i wanted to play pool so we went to the kpool there cos ping want to meet her friends, then the rest of us went to arcade as kelvin want to go play arcade pool but in the end the two table there was occupied. Then derrick, jt, kelvin and me went to play racing car. Haha. Then jt and me play one round of pool. Then after tt i went home first. By then, kelvin and derrick go home liao. I reach home eat dinner then as usual went to sleep. Hais..... Woke up at 12+am. Haha but i am also getting tired at this time liao. Later going to sleep soon. I so sian in maple lor, got kser come and ks me. Arr dun feel like playing maple lei. Sjab dinner at tuesday and my buttons haven't put yet cos i dunno how to put. I am so dead. I dunno y i keep wanting to go out these days. I must prepare to study liao. Just dun have the mood. Heard from shi xiang tt msn cannot send music as got ppl go to jail cos of tt. Is damm sian ok. No more fine liao nor warning letter. Weekend more bored. I also dunno wat to do with it. Hais....i think i will just stone ba. The week pass so quickly..... After i sleep it will be sat. Time is passes so quickly yet so slowly. How ironic it is....

Went to sjab hq to bought those buttons today. Cost so ex lor. Only a few buttons and it cost $27+. Arr i hate it man. Then i also dunno how to put those button and also dunno put where and monday might have to go there again as they run out of store of the big buttons. Oh great!!! i am so lucky to go down again..... Then i went to mph to look for some of the books, and another great thing happen. They dun have the books i want. Found out i have been very lucky lately. Then after tt return home. Went home to take a nap and i oversleep and took a 5h nap. Oh this is so GREAT. Nvm i force myself to sleep early tonight. Ya i learn something everyday and found out tt i am really an impatience guy. I need to learn to control my temper, i need to control myself. My memories might get worse but i dun care ba. I am just too lazy to think. I find myself being so numb, i no longer feel sad, happy or excited and etc. I heard a phrase before and is so true. " when u have no fear, it means u have no hope". As for now, gd night ba.

WED
Today did not have to go to sch as it was tutiorial and lab and 1st week dun have those. I dunno to be happy about it or wat. Hais..... Today i first went to sjab hq and hope to buy those button and u know wat. The store was not open= tt i have to go there tml. Wat luck!!! Then my dad come to fetch me to TM to meet my friends for a movie( The legend of zorro) Haha but before tt i play arcade and walk around in tm. After the movie we went to CS to walk walk as we find is too early to go home yet. I went to comic connection and was walking around when i saw two dolphin hp keychain. One pink and one blue. At first i decided just to buy the blue one but after thinking as there only left two of it, I decided to buy both. So cute ok..Then i hang at my hp. Haha i love it. Then after tt we went home. I went home after having my dinner, as usual i slept a while and when bevin call me then i woke up. He told me a story wat happen to him in the chalet and the story was quite stupid. Then went in maple up around 10% and tml can lvl liao.

Sometimes i really want to left alone, walking in the cold and quiet street. Hoping how ppl can tell me wat to do with my life. Feeling like a walking zombie. Hais........ Nv felt this before i think, dunno wat tt feeling called. Maybe i will figure it out soon.....

I GOING TO GAMBLE ONE ROUND OF MY FATE!!!

First day of sch has pass yet i feel quite like a walking ghost today in sch. Keep thinking about stuff. The lectures r ok, i will try to cope with my studies. Today has two lectures and one CDS. The new canteen in ITAS sch is ok lar. Is actually a food court and the things inside r ex and also they r slow. Really slow!!!!!!! Met wai sum in the lib. My friends happen to book a room beside theirs. So we chat lar. Actually i dun find tt we chat long, read from ur blog say we chat long. Haha... Cds was ok lar. The class was like quite small and i dunno anyone there. Think will be lonely lar. First lesson was very crap, hardly teach anything also. Tml got pratical of CDS liao. Hais at least hope i can get gd result in this sem + cds also do well.

The more i think, the more headache i have, the more i dun want to think, the more happy i am but the more i dun think, the more trouble i get. Hais....... I feel like a floating ghost at the moment.

hais tml sch reopen already. I no mood to return to sch sia. See those bks, + also got stress and pressure to get gd result. Dun want to go as badly as last sem. Really sian or shld i say scared to go to sch. Like so bored. Hais. Still got pbl and Cds lesson. I hate it man. Holiday like so long, was like dunno how to spend it and like now is like all over. F44444444444.

I still cannot adapt to my ipod. The ear piece i dun like i want to buy a better ear pieces= need to spend $$. Hais i am so broke now.

Watch a movie with deby and also met shi xiang on fri. A nice movie, very funny. Haha first time go eat mos burger with shi xiang. Like so long nv c him liao. As he working.... Sad.

Went to kelvin house on sat. Hais wat a hot day sia. Learn to play mahjong, i dun like to play this game but nvm learn ba. Cos i dun want get addicated to gambling next time. after tt play some poker, then we play risk but we all like cheat one, ally here and there. haha so fun. after tt was board game, dunno how to spell it but watever. Play until so tired, my dad bring me home and then have a short nap at home. Too tired. Haha

Sian being thinking a lot today sia. I scared i make the wrong decision. Hais. Hope i make up my mind soon. I am scared. Nvm...... SIANNNNNN AR HATE SCH!!!!!

Went out for half a day today. Went to funan to buy ipod nano but the shops there all sold out. Wah then i was like very disappointed. thn went to tampines meet jinhui as he want to go nokia care but in the end cannot go as the shop was going to close. Then we walk around and then i walk in best, hoping there got but also dun have ipod. then go to courts then LUCKILY got. Yeah, but i bought but the colour is not wat i want. Cos black one sold out. Hais...... Nvm. Then went to play cs with jinhui and my dad came to pick me up to go home. Hais then today also got a bit cold. So i think i going to sleep early. Very tired today. Another long day tml, YEAH!!!! haha

Went to ice skate today. Before tt eat in mac while waiting for leo. Then 1+ went to ice skate. There was so many ppl there. Then it was quite difficult to skate. I fell down 3 to 4 times and knock ppl 2 to 3 times also. It was not suitable for so many ppl to skate and so many small kids somemore. There shld have a limit. But ppl like keep coming in and in. We left about 5pm when there was a lot ppl and we decided to go play pool. Play a 9ft pool table. Haha i like 9ft pool table better. More fun!!! Then after tt sit mrt back to eunos and wait for my dad to bring me out for dinner. The dinner was like not so enjoyable. My dad and his friends was smoking and smoking. If i stay anymore longer, i can die.......... Then reach home around 10+. Very very tired. I think i going to sleep tight and well tonight. Yeah. I just like to feel tired lately before going to bed.

For one whole week has not blog already. Is in maple until too late at night tt y nv blog. Ya, i feeling much much better this week. Thanks to yy to who me last week and some other ppl. Ya, i shld not do things tt i dun like, now i have the will to give up wat i last time believe in and i realise i always feel so sad as i not willing to accept the truth tt the meaning in sjab has changed. Ya, i feel happier now when i realise this. I need a gd talk with them. Maybe i will just quit. Not i want to run away, but i can't accept their way of ur thinking. Went with jin hui to east coast beach last sat. Haha I had a enjoyable day, cycling, walking and talking to him. Hais was so tired tt day and i had a great sleep tt night. Hope i can do tt often. This sunday also got sjab duty. Hais. Need to go restudy the first aid manual soon as i forgot long long ago liao. Haha.. Realise i have changed my thinking this few weeks. Ya, i have changed.Hais... Back to mapling again.