It has been raining for quite a few days already. Really dun feel like waking up today but still need to go to sch. Sian. Go sch for two hour lesson only yet is feel like so boring. Heard also got a lot of make up lesson for PIPC cos of up coming holidays. Then after tt went to com lab cont to do the CSAS powerpoint presentation. Sian spend so much time in doing this presentation already.

After tt went to bgss for sjab oriention. Very bored. Saw some idiotic faces which i dun want to c. I shld not have go back but i also very long nv go back so i feel tt i must go back today. Had a talk with miss kweh. I made up my mind in quitting sjab liao. Is really no pt staying in this cca tt i really dun like. Even sms one officer. Trying to use a more offical tone to talk to u. Yet u think i am being rude. Officer think they very big ar. Crap!!! Then go into sjab room also nothing to talk to them. Really can't get along with them. Until i cannot tahan, i rather go to derrick house do project. I am so happy tt i leave this sch man. Sjab bring me pain and memories tt i want to forget. Ppl i hate are there, ppl who r nasty r there too. Too little nice ppl for me to stay in the sjab liao. I hate myself for going OTC. Maybe if i nv go OTC all this might not happen.

I feel after all this happen. I feel tt i am like a program. Being used up ppl when they need u and forget about u once they have used u. Program has no feeling and i am beginning to feel tt no feeling in me. I feeling lost and more lost each day just like a program floating in the harddrive dunno where to go. Maybe i will get deleted one day. I really hope tt day will come soon.

Tml have formal presentation. Hope i am well prepare. A bit nervous. Nv give presentation in LT before. Stress. There is always first time :)