it seems like a dead blog but i maybe prefer this type of blog. it seems cold like me. haha. Going china so soon already. haha. Hope tt day really come. Today just realise tt sjab meeting was like few weeks ago and no one tell me about this. I know i got the email before but like was during exam period so i did not really notice. WTF really sia. Maybe i shld really not consider about it anymore and quit ba. Life is about choice but y am i tie down to all this stupid things. So many ppl i dislike in sjab. I dun like wat their problem which me cos i dun think tt there is any prob with me. It just make me so so so unhappy with those ppl. One affect another right so wat. They are total crap to my opinion ba. I hate them, they really sux. My life can be much better w/o them. Yet another part of me dun want to leave cos of my years in sjab. It is hard for me to withdraw yet i dun have the heart and energy to cont again. All this is so tiring. I hope everything can end one day sia. Can someone tell me wat to do.

tml going to watch movie and sadly shi xiang cannot come cos he is sick. Sad sia, hope u get well so tt i can freeze u once more. Haha. Life to me seems more like a dream then in the real world. Trying to get out of it, yet is not i dun want but is like i been through all those friendship things and sjab things tt make me dun want to be in the living world, like my soul got lock up like tt. Does anyone know my feeling? Damm