be strong

i am tired, i am exhausted, i feel not being trusted. I lost my energy to get angry, i just hope everything can end early.

But i still can't fall, this body dun allow me too, my mind dun allow me to. This is not the time to fall, it is till quite some time to reach tt.

My str in moving on, huh????????

I keep asking myself to endure and cool down and endure and cool down but it seems i need some channel to complain to right. The poc is really getting more and more crap. Ppl keep emailing me or calling about problems and i am suppose to solve all the problems. OH great....... I seriously hope i can solve those problem and stop those people giving me anymore problems. So tml need to call the trophy maker to change some trophy. Y can't u all just confirm with me the trophy earlier so that i did not waste my time and effort choosing the trophy. No names no nothing, ARRRRRR making my job just harder. Piss............ but eric can endure................

Later wat a long day ok. Sch sch sch, sjab meeting and still need to go fetch my mom. Who knows wat time shall i get home and how much time do i get to rest, study and finish those forever unfinish sjab stuff. I am going nuts if this carry on. I getting broke too........ Hope i win 4D to replenish my pocket and wallet. Is it always be when there is trouble, then u will c ur true friend. I am in no mood for jokes and lameness.

* the thought of you keep me going*
i can't fall now........ is still too early

Feeling damm awful when i reach home lor. My dad scolded me for using the car for too late and my mom locked me out of the house cos i stay out too late. But i was like too lazy to say anymore stuff, i just complain abit and went into my room. I was like feel damm peaceful in the room, w/o any noise and scolding........... I admit tt i had been staying out late lately cos of the new yr, christmas and stuff + now got sjab poc to handle and i also want to chill out with my friends after a day of stressful meeting. I just guess parents dun understand tt and i dun expect them to understand it. It will be a waste of time to even tell them cos i will end up get more nagging.

Yesterday has a long night of meeting to 11.40pm then took almost the last train back to eunos. Meeting at burger king then after tt went to have milkshake. i guess i spending a lot lately. Missing my sleep and when i go back to face my projects and tutorial just feel yucks. . . . . Hope my main exam is not tt soon so tt i have time to catch up later after i finish with poc. Just really dun want any screw up on tt day. Aiming for a perfect POC. MUHAHAHAHA.........

Sch has been boring lately, the PMT lar, so boring lor. The teacher really follow book by book one. His ricebowl is more impt than his passion in teaching. But still can understand the lecture.

Wonder how long can i still push myself.........just wish u were there for me